thinkin

fren see

2009-02-26T21:59:00.002+08:00

hey my dear frens, see see see,

i'm blogging again ok

haha

u all must understand, i at indonesia not spore ma

so hard to blog

so might as well don blog ma...

haha

i just come back to spore,

it look like many things need to do

but actually not so many thing need to do leh

sometimes also headache doing and filling all the form

worsh...

today something different happen to me

I COOKED !!! read carefully i cooked

it so amazing to see me cooking lor

even thought i always say that i'm a F&N student but it really hardly to see me cooking lor

haha...

yun wen, remember u still own me the picture wor

so that this blog will be complete

haha

26/02/09

an 10.26pm

fren say become spider web le

2009-01-15T20:00:00.002+08:00

hahaha

my frens my blog got spider web le...

so here i'm blogging now...

so the spider web was clear ready

haha

waw really leh... me super long never blog le...

sad la, my wallet was not found yet...

i'm so happy that i pass my O level and i pass my english and math!!!

i was really very very very happy

i remember the morning before i take result and before i came back to s'pore, i told my mum

"ma, if i can't make it, i will come back straight way"

but lucky that never happen

i pass my O level!!!

i'm so happy!!!

15/1/09

8.26pm

I LOST MY WALLET!!!

2008-11-08T00:51:00.003+08:00

I LOST MY WALLET !!! =( :..(

SO SAD i lost my wallet....=(

my e link card inside and other cards all inside

pls pls pls anw1 who took my wallet can return it to me???

u can take the money inside but pls please please please return all the cards inside the wallet to me can ready in fact i can give u $30 as reward

so please please please anyone see my wallet please return it to me because i need my elink card so that i can take my o level, i still got 2 more paper to go and i really don wish to go renew all my cards. thank you

so please please please return it to me. thank you

my wallet is black colour the brand is pierre cardin

inside got $20, elink card, identical card, atm card and a few more other cards

my name is andriani you can contact me at 94578637

if you found my wallet . thank you

8/11/08

1.13am

loss faith

2008-08-29T13:50:00.002+08:00

hai ........ hai........

i fail my math paper 1

some fail very badly

i feel like all the hard work did not pay off le

really do think work so hard for what?

now it onli prelimaniry

what den it will be in 'o' level

in 'o' level, fail math mean the end ready

hai......

really need do something to make me feel better but there is nothing i can do !!!!!!!!!!!!!

how can it possible for me to score so high in paper 2 in order to past

really donno what to do le

paper already fail so badly donno how paper 2 it can be lor.....

haiiiiiiiii

arhggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arhHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

29/08/08

1.56pm

hai......

2008-08-18T21:53:00.003+08:00

hai... hai... hai...

i think i screw up during the oral!!!

so so so sad=(

nomally i think convertion is where i think i can score but this time hai..........

the questions were do able if really i think carefully..........

hai.......

but i think i'm too nervouse le.......

they seem to felt bored at my answer which i think where most of the students before me also given the same answers

hai....................hai...................

now i really dunno how to describe my feeling.....

just feel that i'm so stupid how can i so nervouse???

i shall clam myself down but

hai......

nothing i can do now

just hope my mood and my emotions can get back to normal by tomorrow

i really don't wish to show my friends my tempre and my black face

hai.........

cos they do not own me anything or do anything that make make angry

any where,

FRIENDS GOT LUCK FOR YOU GUY WHO WILL BE TAKING ORAL FOR THE NEXT A FEW DAYS, WISH YOU ALL THE BEST!!! =)

JIA YOU!!!

oh ya, one more thing i keep on forgettin about this

this is for e few friend in e1 what i say last week is not for you all is for the other who are proud think they are the best

so in this case i hurt you all also then really pei se

that all =)

18/8/08

10.03pm

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2008-08-03T00:37:00.002+08:00

yeah!!! =)

my mum coming spore next week!!!

so so so happy

miss her!!!

finnaly can see her le!!!

my cousin is getting married next week that why she coming...

my sister will never miss a chance to ask me buy dvd lor

she sms me just to ask me help her buy dvd=( so sad, she did not asked anything about me

only asked me weather i buy her dvd le ma

hai hai hai.......

o lvl is coming only left 74 days

hai!!!

so scary lor...

everyone

jia you

jia you!!!

12.44am

3/8/08

coming!!!

2008-07-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

ohHH!!!!!! time went so fast!!!

prelim is commin in weeks time!!!

but i still haven finish studying!!!

omg!!!

what i'm going to do???

argggHHHHHHHHHhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

help me!!!

confusing !!!

go go go!!!!

every1 we only left 88 days to o lvl

no more playin!!!

JIA YOU!!!

20/7/08

12.14am

hehe

2008-07-15T21:10:00.002+08:00

mt over le!!!

english coming le!!!

hai...

not much days left le

yet so many things haven study

part b need to hand in next mth

yet i still dun really have any ideal

hai..............

miss them..........

that all ba

i just want to say something out !!!! ahrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

15/7/08

9.17pm

misses

2008-07-12T00:18:00.002+08:00

my mum just now called me

i'm very happy because i can hear her voice

but

i also feel sad because i miss her

if never hear her voice, i will not misses them so much

now i heard her voice it make me miss them even more!!!

i really miss them!!!

most of the time i really envy my friends because their family was always with them

everyday go home can see them, talk to them or listen to thier concern about you which many of them feel it just other nagging time

in the past i also think this way

but now i miss the nagging

why we people(me) do not know how to treassure what we have and regard it when we lose it

so now i'm learning to treassure what i have before i lose it

TREASSURE WHAT WE HAVE!!!

dun condamn about our live here because we are really much more "xin fu" compare to many other people in the world(i'm learning not to condamn)

we got house to stay, school to learn, legs to move , hands to touch, eyes to see, ear to listen, mouth to talk and foods to eat but most of us have use it in the wrong ways

life dun always move as we wanted it to be so we must learn to accept it(i'm learning)

DAD&MUM I LOVE YOU ALL & I MISS YOU ALL!!!

but how many of us really have say those words to our family member(really comes from the bottum of our heart) i admit i dun really dare to say those words again

but

at least i had said those words before which really come from bottum of my heart

12/7/08

12.45am

isolation policy

2008-07-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

that day, i went out with my friends

while we are talking, we are talk about isolation policy

and we found some of us(me, is one of them) are taking this policy

we do not bother by what happen around us unless it had connected to my life

but when think carefully do we really taking an isolation policy???

thinking, is that good that if we are having an isolation policy???

do we really dun bother about what happen around us???

today, i never sleep in the evening !!!

haha

i think my friend think that i everyday study untill very late then only sleep a few hours

but

she is wrong... haha

i did sleep, i sleep in the evening!!!

haha

so no worry la

9/7/08

10.39pm

getting

2008-07-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

die ready, die ready

i think i'm going to fell sick!!! i really don't like to be sick here

if really need to be sick i rather wait till a go back batam then sick

at there i at least got them

here got only got myself

then nobody cook for me to eat

my voice now a bit "sa yae" and i can feel my breath is warmer then normal

but i can't affort to be sick now

i need to study

if i recap, i did not eat heaty foods for sometimes le except just now

but got this feeling a few days ago...

or because nowadays i always sleep at evening then study till very late???

but i got enough sleep...

anyway i'm still very luck that i haven sick

so i think i must drink more barley drink

and for today i'm going to be lazy 1 day, i will early!!!

really very stress, we only left 108 days toward O level

do not have much time left le, cannot anyhow waste time

like my friend say treasure every second that we have...

so eveyone!!!

let not watse our gold time

let work hard together

JIA YOU!!! JIA YOU!!! JIA YOU!!!

WE CAN TO IT

IF WE DO IT!!!

GO GO GO!!!

1/7/08

10.01pm

something

2008-06-27T22:36:00.002+08:00

nothing happened but just dunno why my heart felt something strange

just dunno why

is like some moody or being press

is it because O level coming or other things

i also dunno why

wanna find someone to talk to but seem there is no one i can talk to...

come back from batam more then 1 week le

i really miss my FAMILY

miss them badly

threre are not much day left to O level yet i still far behind time

alot of time feeling i'm in the lose

hai........................

27/6/08

10.43pm

miss them again

2008-06-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

i just came back today but actually i shall had came back on monday but i drag it till today haha

when first thing i go back(still in the car)i keep telling them they very bad, they forget what was the special on last friday

haha

then my sis wish me then my brother

that day we went to a resturant to book table for father day

and order cake(know what, i know it the next day, all my best friends they also went to the same shop to order the father day cake!!!)

haha

later that late evening i keep telling them my second sis treat me badly because she say me that i did not comform the date, then i told them the whole story then they "ohhh"

"haa"

then i know that at that moment my second sis know that she was wrong for being mean to me

she did not say sorry even she know she wrong i know that very well

but i did not angry at her anymore

it really true that there is a phare it goes " xue nong yu sui in in english i think is blood thicker then water maybe not sure"

i felt so sad last saturday because i cause my nephew to fall

very sad i shall not "bao" him then ran, i shall hold his hand then run

i think it really my foult it really hurt me

i try my best to use my body to protect him le but it still too late, he also get hurt at his elbow

after that heavy fall, at night, i found my wist bone there quiet pain

it pain for days

actually, last friday, i really very suprise by my friends...

they told me they not coming to school

but when the lesson is over, and i was on my way to the front gate, they pull me in to the canteen and there was a small cake with candle on it

i was so so suprise i dun know that

THANK FRIENDS FOR THE GIFT AND EVERYTHINGS!!! LOVES YOU ALL!!!

During the days when i was at batam with my family, i really feel very relax and happy

i do not have the feelin that i felt when i'm here

i will always fell my time always not enough for me

but back there i felt i always have enough time for me

excapt the time for sleep because my nephew will always wake me up early in the morning(love him so cute)

before go i though i'm not going to stay for too long

but when there, i do not feel like coming back here

i want to be with them

my heart ache when i say good bye to them :..(

come back here again, facing all the problems or maybe running from problems again

it really tiring

anf it stress when i'm here i know i only left 118 or 119 from O lvl

i can't help myself to stop thinking about that

STRESS!!!

DAD,MUM,SISTERS,NEPHEWS & BROTHER I MISS YOU ALL

I LOVE YOU ALL

Miss you all so much even though only we just say good bye

19/6/08

12.28am

i was in the wrong again???

2008-06-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

i told ready i dun want ,am really ok with that, i dun but why say ok then , then suddenly say want again ???then now look like i'm the mean one , i'm the turn off one&am the bad one

i'm the want like making everone difficult...

do thing without i say yes, then i turn it off, only make me feel guilty for what???

i know she trying to be kind but i really dun feel like to face her

i can't face her like the last time i did

i know if i meet her i will not smile more and she will ask why???

which i dun want to answer

i hidingit to myself because i dun wish to quarrel with her, i dun wish to lost anymore friend but i need time to stop thinking about that i need time

other then that i dun know what to do ready...

i had kept it for so long

i just want to say it out so that i can feel better i know in this way i'm quiet selfish but i really need to bring it out so that it will not hold in my heart make me felt very difficult

i say it out here but at least i know she will not know

( if you read had read this please dun tell her, it a thing that i want you to do for me,it is one of the promise... thx i dun mean to make you difficult just that i dun wish to have anymore misunderstanding that why i'm tellin you this)

because of the anger that i can't control that time, i lost my friend so i really dun wish because my of my anger again then i lose my other friend

sometime i do think why i shall change why i can't remain like last time happy go lucky

even sky drop also treat it as blanket

i really do think is it good that i have change???

but at least i know one think it have it advantage that i change

so did not force myself to do something that i dun like anymore

when i think back about how my life when i was small,

when i look back at it,

i think i'm really very useless

always get bully but ever since i came here look and how reality is the world

i know i must change cannot be bully anymore

but these change that lead me to many more other changes in me

i'm totaly become different person when i was at batam

which i think i din't regret about the most of the changes in me

fri 13/6/08

12.15

my problem again?

2008-06-11T23:10:00.005+08:00

i called grandma ready she was the one who dun want to comform with me then is like my fault again???

why you yourself dun want call her??? i ask me call her???

i tried to talk to her very nicely ready but she dun want comform with me then my fault??? do you ever think the ways you spoke to me just now really hurt me???my heart ache especially nowaday so many things had happen to me...your voice it sound so cold, sound like i'm somebody you dunno... it not fair for me!!! did not treat you like this how come u treat me like this!!!

u ask me buy your things, i got no money le still buy for you... did u EVER put yourself in my shoes??? i'm alone HERE!!! nobody with me, yet evertime you sms me is just to ask me buy your things did u ever ask me how i'm doing??? did anything happen??? you did not ask me before not even once!!!

at first i really happy that i'm going back soon because i really misses u all but now i felt so unwanted like no one was waiting for me there no one care

if not because of father day i really dun felt like going back

11/6/08

11.45pm

confuse

2008-06-11T00:03:00.004+08:00

wow

i going back to batam soon... happy

i really miss them

my mum,my dad, my sisters, my brother(even though i not close with him and eveytime make me angry) my nephews and my friends

i really miss u all right now =(

but things does not go smoothly for me this a few days

trying to control but it still out of control

from that day i know about the thing even though i know it for months but, i know that i can't face her like last time i did

i can't act like last time, i can't be mostly ok

i know she know but she dunno why what the reasons

the gab is further, the knock is tighter...

i wish i could treat i did not know that but i can't

maybe my heart are not big and maybe i just simply very "xiao qi"

i do not aspect to be treat the same or even better but at least not like that

it maybe just a small thing who i believe many people will think so but for me is not ...

i hate it just who i am???

other things also had add on to this. look like i was the mean one, the bad one and the make ppl unhappy one

but do i really that kind of person???

what did i done wrong???

i tried not to be turn off but what for when i know who cares

confuse right now, dunno what to do, really effected...

thanks my cousins =) ( thx u for u all)[i wish to put u all the names but i think better not to put any names in blog]

thx for the gift i like it but maybe i will not always use the bag because i will only use it to put books to go study with friends

i may not use it to go out because i dun use that type of bag to go out le

11/6/08

1.06am

waste

2008-05-31T00:11:00.003+08:00

oh no !!! i wasted my dinner!!! i did not finish up my dinner =(

i just promised myself yesterday i will learn not to waste foods

but today i wasted my foods leh...

promised is hard to keep man...

i don't dare to make any promises so without thinkin whether can i keep or not...

next time must think carefully le...

there must be something wrongs with me these a few days because i have up dated my blog for continuely for 2 DAYS!!!

an
31/05/08 12.23 am

mood

2008-05-30T01:04:00.003+08:00

OH no no no!!!! my mood swing very fast now adays, i don't even know why!!!
i cn't control my mood... just could't

everythings seem like not going smoothly for me

why why why???

why these happen to me??? i mean how can they like these.

even thought this happen almost 1 month ago but i still feel the pain sometime.

i'm not trying to act kind or what but i just felt that i really affected by the china earthqueak, every time i watch the news about the earthqueak had causes so many children to die or injured, i felt my heart pain. i know this maybe nothing to do with me but i still could't controll my heart...i heard so many stories from the TV donation show that make me felt bad, felt sad how can it happen to them???

most of them still so so so small............

they haven lives enough yet...

from these disaster also, i find one very important thing for all of us... here may not struck by any nature disaster but we still need to treassure what we have around us like our family, friends,education and foods...

so many people esp children from other part of the world could't have enough foods. so i know that i cannot waste any foods that i have. hope all of you guys who had read these will treassure what we all have right now, don't take what we have for granted.

however, this is not the only reasons make me mood swing there are still other things that happen or i see make me feel so mood swing.

i really started to treassure what i have but do they really treassure me??? i'm very doubt about it......

i know very well that nothing in this world is equal, what you give away, you will not get back 100% and i also did not aspect it to be equal back for me too... but i do think why things are not equal???i cn't get ... maybe i just need to take more time to understand this cycle, this is the real sociality we all will end up in...

NOTHING IN THIS WORLD IS EQUAL...

30/05/08 fri

1.37 am

2008-05-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

hai......................
today very mood swing!!!!!!!!!!=(

i did smile bt most of the time my face was no reaction de

no smile no feeling....

even my heart was no feling too loh...

i really don believe wad i saw today...........

i cn't believe that....................

it my 1st time ..........

i could't cry bt i could't do anything too not a single thing...........

i cn't think i cn't use my brain it like i lose ........... totally lose!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe no point nw blaming myself for that...........

i noe very well i really need to study............

i will study 100times harder???

will it use???

i donno too.....

i was in the lost rite now..........

i will smile i will smile were the only thing i told myself in skul....

i tired my best to smile cos i noe no point saddin nw

sad u oso must past this day not hapi oso must past this day

so why not happy happy past this day=)

SMILE=)

EVERYONE WE ALL MUST JIA YOU!!!

WE HAVE NO TIME LEFT SO TREASSURE OUR TIME!!!

JIA YOU!!! JIA YOU!!! JIA YOU!!!

WE CAN DO IT IF WE BELIEVE WE CAN DO IT!!!!!! Yeah!!!=)

161 DAYS TO O LEVEL!!!

7/5/08

11:08pm

2008-04-28T23:09:00.002+08:00

aft hair extantion=)

my frens and i took it long time ago le

2008-04-28T22:56:00.003+08:00

yes!!! tml is last paper!!! tt great, no no no it shall be very great...
anw even though tml got pp bt i don feel like tml is exam lehh..... i feel like last thurs is already my last pp ...haha=)))) hahahaaaaaaa heheheeeeeeee......... xp

anw today i got back 2 pp math and bio

and i fail both my pp...

i donno how to describe my feelin nw,

cos

is like cnnt say i total unhapi bt

oso cnnt say am ok...

jus tt donno how to describe tt feelin...

am nt total sad or wad cos i noe

i deserved it

cos

i don really spend my time in study

i just study very last minute

i never study few days b4 de pp

i always study last minute

like tml is wad pp den i tonight study wad subject loh...

look forward 4 de last pp...

every1 in de world jia you for any things tt we need to work on...

JIA YOU!!!

28/4/08

11.09pm

in the lose

2008-04-15T21:30:00.003+08:00

SA1 had arrived!!!

english paper finish le... hai... donno can do well anot??? even though my cher say my 1st Q is correct so??? how abt the rest??? correct oso ma??? am really very worries, wad can i do???

so stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bt jus donno y don feel like studyin... donno y... HAIS..............................

wad shall i do???

i really wan to study to past to do well... bt jus jus could'nt study.................

ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hate dis feelin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

an tues
15/4/08
09.37pm

2008-01-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

today aft see my frens those who takin their 'o' lvl result, i felt veri stress i'm afraid tt next yr wen i get de result i will cry and cry for tear of sadness.... i realy scare so nw i veri stress... i wan next yr wen i gt my 'o' lvl result i will happy and very happy ....

i was really stress lol...............

bt i still feel hapi for my frens those who get good great and most of them cn go jc , reallt feel veri happy for them=)

bt i oso c some of my skulmate cryin and i noe they veri sad and it me even scared for 'o' lvl i'm in de lost nw

stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tml still got F&N test lol

an thurs 24.1.08
10.10pm

2008-01-24T21:53:00.001+08:00

i catch this mouse wif my fren shin ping at bugis de arcade
haha tt day is fun
cos we mad le so we decieded to play tt lol
at 1st i onli wan to try a few time onli
aft tt addited to it le so play until we catch dis haha

=)

bored

2008-01-19T17:51:00.000+08:00

hai today like ever1 is goin out.onli me stay at home ,so so borin lol..... really feel like goin out lol...bt too bad no 1 cn accompany me out. my frens got go out wif thier family even thought she oso got ask me out too bt i still feel ps so i say if i cn wake up lol... other 1 she got work so i nv ask her.... den the rest is cnnt go out or wif other fren or stead the rest is not tt close de ..... i finally find out tt i don really have many frens....

cc

2007-05-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

2007-05-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

hai...
today donno y lol
i talk mouth pain
i eat mouth oso pain
nw even i drink mouth oso pain!!!
hai...
pain ... pain...
i long time never update le
so mine *mei mei* ask me to update
so i update for her sick
Haha!!!

mine mouth is drivin me crazy!!!
pain!!!
hah(:

2007-05-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

chan chan shoe

loo loo shoe

2007-04-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

haizzzzz....
sian... exam comin le!!!
so fast!!!
until nw i haven study yet ...
study le oso cnnt go in into my brain...
haizzz... donno wat to do le lah...
wanna study!!!bt cnnt get into mine brian!!!
i really wish wad i study cn gt into mine brian...
haizzz................................................

2007-04-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

2007-04-22T18:06:00.000+08:00

hai... sain... must study...
hai...read book until i wanna slp le
how i wish i cn no need study ...
den go out wif frens
& hav fun lol...
exam faster come & faster go ba...
hopefully i cn pass mine exam veri well
if nt,i really need to die... liao...
sad...

fren

2007-04-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

thxx

2007-04-22T17:54:00.000+08:00

i must thx mine fren shin ping who help me create this blog

thx shin ping

2007-04-20T16:08:00.000+08:00