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Y .Thursday, June 12, 2008.

i told ready i dun want ,am really ok with that, i dun but why say ok then , then suddenly say want again ???then now look like i'm the mean one , i'm the turn off one&am the bad one
i'm the want like making everone difficult...
do thing without i say yes, then i turn it off, only make me feel guilty for what???
i know she trying to be kind but i really dun feel like to face her
i can't face her like the last time i did
i know if i meet her i will not smile more and she will ask why???
which i dun want to answer
i hidingit to myself because i dun wish to quarrel with her, i dun wish to lost anymore friend but i need time to stop thinking about that i need time
other then that i dun know what to do ready...
i had kept it for so long
i just want to say it out so that i can feel better i know in this way i'm quiet selfish but i really need to bring it out so that it will not hold in my heart make me felt very difficult
i say it out here but at least i know she will not know
( if you read had read this please dun tell her, it a thing that i want you to do for me,it is one of the promise... thx i dun mean to make you difficult just that i dun wish to have anymore misunderstanding that why i'm tellin you this)
because of the anger that i can't control that time, i lost my friend so i really dun wish because my of my anger again then i lose my other friend
sometime i do think why i shall change why i can't remain like last time happy go lucky
even sky drop also treat it as blanket
i really do think is it good that i have change???
but at least i know one think it have it advantage that i change
so did not force myself to do something that i dun like anymore
when i think back about how my life when i was small,
when i look back at it,
i think i'm really very useless
always get bully but ever since i came here look and how reality is the world
i know i must change cannot be bully anymore
but these change that lead me to many more other changes in me
i'm totaly become different person when i was at batam
which i think i din't regret about the most of the changes in me
an
fri 13/6/08
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